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Archive for February, 2009

Weird Feelings

I got some weird feelings tonight and I am trying to figure out what it is about…

I certainly feel happy because I got offered for both positions I applied for. It is good for many different reasons… At the same time, most people I would love to celebrate this with are not around. Most people happen to have something going on tonight. I guess that is one of the reason why I feel kind of alone… on a day to be celebrated.

Maybe it is also because she is not around… I think I slowly grow attached to her… Maybe I still have feelings for her. I don’t know. I will just live life as how it is… Whatever happen happens…



7 Pounds

I watched "7 pounds" tonight… it was a well made movie although the story itself is very sad in many ways. I feel that I could relate to the main character… trying to do something to remedy what was caused by him. I feel the same way… I had a few tears in my eyes because it brought back memories… *sigh*

People ask me why I want to join the business world for HR instead of staying in education… I always said that going back to education is what I will do eventually. The other reason which I didn’t explain is that I would join the business world because I want to be able to have more capacities to help people. I would rather work for non-profit that has a great mission to make the world a better place. However, in many ways, I would like to be able to have the abilities to donate to causes that I believe in.

Humm… This world makes me wonder…


Would you rather…

Someone asked me an interesting question last night… it was kinda like a "would you rather question"

He said: "The question is… would you rather have someone speaks nothing at all or someone who bad mouth others all the time…" I think he has a point there… Silence is gold… lol



Just want to put it out there… I am personally not a fan of the idea of Valentine’s day. Wait… don’t judge me just yet… I just think there shouldn’t be a specific day to do something wonderful for someone you like/love. I think we should do things whenever we can… It’s just weird to me to have that one set day…


Not so Sure…

I probably should be sleeping because I have to work in 6 hours but my attempt was not successful. I am not thrill about that. I guess I want to take some time to write since I haven’t done so in a while and this is a way for me to reflect.

Life was much busier last week and it will be the same as I picked up a job and an internship this semester. I still need time to adjust and find that balance. It will probably take me a little longer. I just made the decision that I will not do any club related stuff in the upcoming week so I can focus on adjusting on the new changes.

I guess another thing is that I am no longer sure why I do some of the things I do… I feel that I need to make an important decision on that one as well… I don’t like doing things that seems so pointless and for no reasons. There is probably one but I just can’t think of it at the moment. Maybe it’s just me not getting enough sleep these days and still not getting enough tonight. Who knows…

I really like the quote showing on the side today. It echos my trend of thought:

"Kindness in women, not their beauteous looks, shall win my love."
– Washington Irving

"If you find someone you love in your life, then hang on to that love."
 – Princess Diana

I should go and give it another shot to see if I can fall asleep now…



I am getting fed up these days with how a lot of things went. I am tired of some of the people around me… My energy is drained so much to the point that I don’t want to care anymore. I wish I can just do that…

I don’t like being a pessimist… I love the optimistic me a whole that better. I wonder… Where is the balance of giving and taking? I feel drained from losing that balance… so drained that I need to recharge myself… hang out with people that actually do what they say…..


If You Have Nothing Good to Say Please Say Nothing

I am left here with no words… because I don’t want to be harsh to anyone.

"If You Have Nothing Good to Say Please Say Nothing At All"

All I can say is that I am frustrated… with many things…