I certainly feel happy because I got offered for both positions I applied for. It is good for many different reasons… At the same time, most people I would love to celebrate this with are not around. Most people happen to have something going on tonight. I guess that is one of the reason why I feel kind of alone… on a day to be celebrated.
Maybe it is also because she is not around… I think I slowly grow attached to her… Maybe I still have feelings for her. I don’t know. I will just live life as how it is… Whatever happen happens…
People ask me why I want to join the business world for HR instead of staying in education… I always said that going back to education is what I will do eventually. The other reason which I didn’t explain is that I would join the business world because I want to be able to have more capacities to help people. I would rather work for non-profit that has a great mission to make the world a better place. However, in many ways, I would like to be able to have the abilities to donate to causes that I believe in.
Humm… This world makes me wonder…
He said: "The question is… would you rather have someone speaks nothing at all or someone who bad mouth others all the time…" I think he has a point there… Silence is gold… lol
Life was much busier last week and it will be the same as I picked up a job and an internship this semester. I still need time to adjust and find that balance. It will probably take me a little longer. I just made the decision that I will not do any club related stuff in the upcoming week so I can focus on adjusting on the new changes.
I guess another thing is that I am no longer sure why I do some of the things I do… I feel that I need to make an important decision on that one as well… I don’t like doing things that seems so pointless and for no reasons. There is probably one but I just can’t think of it at the moment. Maybe it’s just me not getting enough sleep these days and still not getting enough tonight. Who knows…
I really like the quote showing on the side today. It echos my trend of thought:
"Kindness in women, not their beauteous looks, shall win my love."
– Washington Irving
"If you find someone you love in your life, then hang on to that love."
– Princess Diana
I should go and give it another shot to see if I can fall asleep now…
I don’t like being a pessimist… I love the optimistic me a whole that better. I wonder… Where is the balance of giving and taking? I feel drained from losing that balance… so drained that I need to recharge myself… hang out with people that actually do what they say…..
"If You Have Nothing Good to Say Please Say Nothing At All"
All I can say is that I am frustrated… with many things…