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A Helping Hand

One question remains from last night. Especially after my really not enjoyable class just now which I hope will improve in the next session… Could you help a person who does not wish to be help? Or even… should you help at all?

I guess the answer to the second question is easier for me. Although I really don’t think there is a right answer for this one. I think we should, or at least do our best. The result of our effort might not be great or even worse, back fired, but it was worth the shot in my opinion. It probably depends on the person as well.. complicated stuff…

Could we help? I really don’t know… I think we all have our pride and that from time to time get in the way so we refuse to get help or to be helped. I feel that I was very much like that before… Many people are willing to help but can’t because we don’t accept the fact that we need it then we push them away. Especially our friends…

I think someone said that the friends who care about you tell you things that you don’t want to hear. I guess this might be the case… We say something because we don’t want to see friends going down the same road again and we feel that we should do something about it, even if the cost is friendship. But, could we really help when people don’t want to be helped? If I have to answer it… for me, it is maybe but probably a no… it’s sad to think that way but I can’t force people do things they don’t want to. Although I will attempt even if I will get a slap in the face… At least I give it a shot… and hope for the best…

W.

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Discovery

I guess one important part of life other than growing up is to discover ourselves. Things happen in life and influence us. We sometimes are unaware of the fact that we have changed over time. Not unless we think about it.

I feel that I have gotten a lot more mellow and accepting over the last two, three years. Although I love to have a plan, an overview of things. I have gotten to the point that I know things normally will not happen according the plan and I will just have to follow the flow, deal with whatever comes up. That probably has a lot to do with the experiences I had while working for Up with People. Things change constantly and is more important to find a solution and get on with it.

I am not saying having a plan is a bad thing… I think it’s actually rather important because it gives us goal and motivation. I am just saying what I have noticed about myself. I am also not saying that I am not passionate about things I do… I probably don’t express myself very obviously but I think passion is what keep us going. Sometimes you lose it from things that went off-course and it takes a while to get it back. lol… I feel that I am writing a disclaimer now stating what I am not say… I guess it’s all up to interpretation, there is no way I can cover all the possible imaginations…

W.


Truth and Drinking…

To be honest… I am drunk now… Had quite a few beers tonight. Anyway, I tend to tell a lot more than normal when I have been drinking. Gladly I still have self-control at this moment. By that, I am just saying that I was able to stop myself from txting her. I miss her though… really do… I miss getting txt from her. Anyway, waiting for that pizza…
 
W.


That’s just me…

Jake asked me why I chose to be considerate and go to another place so the person who I don’t respect gets the chance to go to my good friend’s party. I don’t know… Even though knowing that if I ever see that guy, I will punch him so hard just hope to knock some senses into him, I still don’t want to isolate him. My problem with him is between the two of us, I don’t feel that I have that right to cut him out. Feeling a little conflicted about my decision but I think it’s the right choice.

Anyway… what’s done is done…

W.


Inspiration

I love good quotes… they bring encouragement and inspiration to me. Here is a good one I encountered today by William Shakespeare:

Virtue is bold, and goodness never fearful.”

It tells me that there is nothing to be afraid of when I am doing good and I should not fear doing good. Virtue takes encourage… It really does… but there is nothing we should fear from being good.

W.


Ask and You Shall Receive

You might help a person without even knowing. Words we say, things we do, might have a greater impact that we ever expected. Someone did that for me today and it was great… I am glad that I was listening. We all should listen more because there are so much more to learn if we listen. I feel that I know what to do again…

Ask and You Shall Receive… perhaps it is because we are more willing to accept help when we ask for it or we are more aware of things around us. Whatever it is… maybe it’s the blessing from you, Rita. I will never know but it’s time…

W.


Mask

So tired… A simple lunch with friends is so draining. I feel like I am wearing a mask, pretending to be the normal me. I am tired of feeling this way. Doing my best to distract myself from thinking… yet, maybe thinking is what I need to reach that clarity and make peace with life. I feel like a jerk in some way not talking to her… *sigh* I need that extra hand…

W.