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Lost in Words

So… funny story for you all… but let’s start with the beginning.

I went to Appleton yesterday to see and hang out with her yesterday. It was a really good day. I am happy that she got to meet Jake as well. I guess my movie theater searching skill isn’t the best but things worked out just fine. Really happy to get to see her, especially see her happy and smiling .

Ok… two funny stories actually. One is that when we are leaving. I gave her a hug and I said "Thank you…" ?? Ok… I have no idea why I said that. Absolutely no idea. I guess I was nervous? Humm… dunno. I think she said something important to me but I was so distracted in my mind that I wasn’t able to catch her words clearly… argh… Now I can only wonder what exactly she said…

The second one is that as Jake and I were driving home… somehow following the sign isn’t enough… we missed an exit or something and drove right back to Appleton after 20 mins of driving… but I got to drive a little which is good… I am so out of practice with my driving. I used to speed parking and now I have problem backing up a car?! Shame on me… lol…

Anyway, need to start packing for the ice fishing and snowboarding… pretty excited about that…

W.


Be Ourselves

Somehow my bad luck always come to me around the evening these days… Oh, well… Sometimes things just come up and we need to make adjustment to adopt. It was a lot of organizing and decision making for me. I just don’t like disappoint people and especially not her. I have asked Jake a lot today and I own him a big one.

It must be hard for her… not being able to be herself at a place that she calls home. So what that we have a little flaws… that does not mean we are not good people! People have so much expectations on everyone that made it so hard for people just to be who they want to be. Maybe that pressure pushes a lot people off the edge!! Nobody is perfect! I just don’t understand why this happens to her because she is such a nice person… I guess I just hope that she gets more support from her family and that she remembers the good things in her life. I am a little worried…  I wish I am confident enough with my driving skill… then I will drive up to her now. *sigh* so much wishful thinking…

I am thankful to my friend Jake though… He has been a good friend… and good friends are hard to find… I am glad that I have some amazing friends throughout my life.

W.


Happy… Just Simply Happy…

Well, it’s Christmas Eve today… It’s also the day that my grade is released from last semester. I am really happy to be able to say that I am a 4.oo student. I called my mom to let her know the good news. I am glad that she can be proud of me. I guess I was a little overshadow by my sister’s straight A and my father’s almost two PhD. Finally a chance to shine a little

She told me two days ago that she was getting a haircut. I don’t know why I even bother to tell her my preference of long hair. I like her because of who she is and not the length of her hair. I have been talking to her on Facebook these days… which is nice because I am so darn slow in txting Oh… I miss her and I am glad that I get to see her on Saturday (in three days ).

There are two presents under the tree for me. I kinda feel weird about that… Anyway, I shouldn’t complain or anything, getting present is a good thing and I am going back to sleep more…

W.


One person, one action…

This cold is really getting me… it’s like the where the problem was yesterday is fine now but it move on to the next spot it can find… It’s like playing pee-ka-boo with my body or something. Smart thing…

Anyway, that’s not what I feel the need to write this entry….

Waking up early this morning… got a txt from her and she seem very sad and that makes me sad. She is hurt… by the person who she think she could trust the most. Sometimes, one person, one single action could create so much pain in other people’s life. They ruined things for the others. I hope they will see that someday then stopping doing it and I wish not to be the same as them. She must wonder why it happened, what she did… I wish I have the answer for her but I don’t… I guess some people are just mean… *sigh* I wish I have a magic ward to make her pain go away…

Maybe it’s fate that it happened because it’s her destiny to find someone better and who deserves her. Well, at least that’s how I would like to see it.

W.


Words and Actions

Well, it has been an eventful day for vacation. Though nothing went according to what we thought we would be doing but overall it turns out to be ok. Shoveling snow because it snowed like crazy last night so we didn’t go to a hill to test out gears and just warm up. But I build a little jump on my own and practice for a bit. I am glad that I am still able to do 360 and 180 indy grab over that tiny thing. The afternoon ended with a good nap.

The evening wasn’t my favorite… paid 2 dollars to watch a not-so-interesting basketball game.. the ref was making bad calls and all that… Oh well… then I got even more frustrated with the next thing. Went to a place to visit a friend, I was told it is going to be a short visit. Well, ended up being there for over two and half hours. We weren’t doing much at all. Just mainly watching TV. I am sick and also tired at the time, I guess I was grumpy for that reason. I just feel that I could be doing a lot more things that’s more interesting and beneficial for me. Especially when I can just talk with her than practically stuck and doing nothing. Or sleep and get better with this minor cold. Anyway… I was not going to make him go because it is important to him to spend time there. I guess that’s what friends do… and realizing that helps me feel better now.

The great thing is that she has been txting me throughout that period of time and keep me company. It really made me feel a lot better, just simply knowing the fact that there is someone who cares. I felt warmness in my heart when I read it. Now coming back to look at the pictures she just uploaded… just made me miss her… a lot…

I feel that I should just get my own damn car and it will make things so much easier… anyway… Time to bed… Tomorrow is a brand new day…

W.


Change of Plans…

Humm… I really don’t like it when people just change plan on me… I guess I am ok with it but a little irritated. Well, at least I will still get to snowboard but just not in Colorado. Anyway, I can still live with that and probably by tomorrow I will be just fine about it.

I have been… very lazy I would say. Not doing much at all… helping out with shoving snow. Watching "House" and simply chill and relax. Tested my new gears a little today. The pants and boots are very comfortable and warm. Need to get an old iron to wax the board tomorrow and then test my board on a small hill or something.

I have been… txting a lot… I miss her though… oh, well… Trying to do this online wish list thing and some address problem is not allowing me to buy one of the thing she wants… can’t deliver to her address but mine… which is weird but if I do that and she bought it herself then it would just suck. Anyway, I will try again after I wake up I guess.

W.


Packing

I know, we all know that time really flies… It’s already the end of my first semester in grad school. I am packing up for winter break at this moment and I realize that I am not as excited about it as I used to be. There is a mix feeling about this break. On one hand, I am really looking forward to just chill, read a book, play guitar… then ice fishing and snowboarding in Colorado; on the other hand… I know I will miss someone… humm… mix feeling

I also have spent way too much money in the past two days. I look at the stuff I bought as investment and hopefully these assets will last long. Anyway… continue packing…

W.